I’d Imagined

I’d imagined you imagining me

–Imagine how amazing that imagining could be–

But no.

There’s real sadness in realizing that my fantasy

Isn’t your reality

No.

That the twisted forest path I follow in my dreams

Is never–no–not really what it seems.

I wish I could truly lay myself bare

Not give a shit, not give a care

But I do (how predictable that seems)

And I wish I could come up with something clever

Like happiness dispensed via some sort of lever

But no, so…

Here’s hoping you can be for me who I need to be for you

Yet there’s no sort of linguistic trick  that will  do…

So please–

Dare to finish the story for me

Dare brilliantly first before my future self abhors me;

Yes, do it now, do it please

And don’t make me beg for it

I’m already on my knees.

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Life is here NOW!

I sometimes wonder if anyone understands me

Like what I can be

I sometimes wonder if anyone understands you

Like what you can do

I secretly wish you have the power to rescue me

–Ha! See how silly even a modern girl can be?–

And still…

What would it be like if I really understood myself?

What would it be like if you really understood yourself?

Like a rare book read hourly, not shoved upon some shelf

Yes, I still dare to dream that our mysteries can be solved

That our human fears and sins can somehow be absolved

That we’ll seize the power and strength to rescue ourselves

Clearly seeing that life’s not in the bleachers or on these shelves

That it’s right here, right NOW, waiting…IMG_1769

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Is it too late?

In years past I’ve wondered

How to mark a date–

Is it too late?

Am I too far gone, I dare to think,

As I reach happily (?) for another drink,

Wondering now, as I yearn for adventure,

And err sadly on the side of self-censure,

Is it too late?

Come with me now

To spin the wheels of fate

Let’s dare to procreate

And wonder—is it too late?

Still I hunger for something

I fear you cannot provide

And it’s a hunger I cannot/refuse to hide

Something fate can’t override

Is it too late?

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Best of Beauty 2014

If you’re looking for a last-minute gift for a friend, are lucky enough to score a Sephora gift certificate over the holidays, or are wanting to glam it up for NYE, check out the beauty products I’m loving this year.

Hello, gorgeous! 

Best Primer  

Laura Mercier’s Radiance Foundation Primer is a product I use every day. Its slightly opalescent, lit-from-within glow is easily addictive. Although I use it all over the face, I particularly like the sheen it delivers to the cheek bone area.

Tip #1: Sephora sells a smaller 1 oz bottle of this stuff which is great for giving it a first try and even the smaller size lasts forever.

Tip #2: Laura Mercier also does a Radiance Bronze version, which I wanted to love but didn’t. It was far too muddy on me.

Best Eyeshadow Palette

It was my sister who first got me hooked on Urban Decay, and at Christmas time to boot. Their mega-hit Naked2 eyeshadow palette, which contains 12 fairly universally-flattering shades, did me in. Although there are both matte and sparkly options–and I’m not one to shy away from a little glimmer–this palette is slightly too shiny for me. That said, it’s an undeniable go-to when it’s in the house, and Half Baked and Booty Call are AMAZING shades. (Not to mention pretty good names.)

Best Brows

I once asked a professional make-up artist what she considered to be my best feature. Without hesitation she said my brows. It seemed slightly disappointing at the time but now that we’re having a Cara Delevigne moment, I’m pleased. The best shortcut to amazing-looking brows is Urban Decay’s Brow Box. This one tiny box packs a lot of punch: two powders, a setting gel, two tiny brushes, and a mini tweezer. Plus it lasts forever.

Tip: Anastasia Beverly Hills also offers excellent brow products. Though not cheap, the Urban Decay brow box combines so many products that it’s far better value for the money.

Best Cheek Palette

This Urban Decay palette has much of what you need to create a perfect face: a blush, a bronzer and a highlighter. It’s available in four different colour schemes; I’ve tried both the introductory Naked (more pink) and Streak (more peach, which is nice for summer). Although the blush and bronzer are good (and useful for very basic contouring) it’s the highlighter that really takes the cake. This stuff is excellent!

Best Lashes 

Like many of you, I’ve been searching for the perfect mascara for years. While I’m a fan of Lancome’s Definicils, my favourite mascara right now is L’Oreal’s Voluminous Butterfly.

Butterfly Mascar

Something about the brush really does elongate and shape the lashes! This drugstore product is definitely worth giving a try.

Tip #1: Channel your inner Kim Kardashian and apply liberally, especially at the outer tips.

Tip #2: Knowing how much I like the regular Butterfly, I was keen to give the newer Voluminous Butterfly Intenza a try. Disappointing! Unlike its predecessor, that stuff is weak sauce.

Best Red Lip 

Having succumbed to the charms of Taylor Swift, I too have started daring to sport a bright red lip. I’ve even stumbled upon the perfect shade. Lancome’s Rouge In Love in 183N “Be My Date” is a true red–not too orange, not too pink, just perfect.

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Unfortunately, it seems like it’s been discontinued. Scour your local stores, ladies, as this a red you don’t want to miss!

Well, that brings this year’s beauty list to a close. Happy holidays, everyone. Here’s wishing you a beautiful 2015!

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Homelessness is the worst kind of wildness

Crow on Lampost by Jan TurnerCoyote, I’m told this used to be a crow sanctuary
Now murders of crows still fly at nightfall
Darkening the city skies like locusts
Nesting on steel buildings, wires and walls
Coyote, do you think they still dream
Of days when their trees stood tall?
Man, we dare to call the birds murderers;
It’s we who are the killers, after all

“You are responsible, forever, for what you have tamed.”
Antoine de Saint-Exupery

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My New Company, Goal Gathering, is born!

Dear Friends,

Over the past six months (and realistically long before then) I’ve been contemplating what sort of business I want to create. After quite a bit of reading and research, and some deep soul-searching, I’ve decided to launch Goal Gathering.

Goal Gathering is a learning and networking community dedicated to helping people achieve their goals. Members gather to learn, share and micro-volunteer to support each other’s success.

Early in 2015, our open (100% free) online community will go live. Members will visit goalgathering.com to share their goals, access learning resources and participate in meaningful, supportive discussions. We’ll work together to help people achieve what’s most important to them. We’ll look for ways to be of help, whether by offering ideas, free services, introductions—you name it.

Just imagine all the great possibilities this collective could create. (Hello, synchronicity!)

In addition to our open online community, Goal Gathering will also offer a range of inspiring (fee-for-service) learning and networking events throughout the year. These goal-focused events will take place both online and face-to-face in the Metro Vancouver, BC, area.

Perhaps most importantly, laying the foundation for my company has involved discovering and articulating the “why” behind Goal Gathering. Asking myself, what is it that I truly believe?

You’ll find the answer here:

What we focus on grows.

Given this immutable truth, we owe it to ourselves to focus on what we really want to achieve. Goal Gathering creates the space for us to continuously focus on achieving our goals.

Accountability improves results.

Even with the best intentions, people routinely fail to maintain their resolutions. By sharing your commitments and progress with others actively pursuing their goals, you’re likely to feel more accountable and achieve greater results.

Too many people feel isolated and alone.

Research has shown that social isolation is one of Metro Vancouver’s biggest challenges. I think this problem extends far beyond our borders. The Goal Gathering community exists to help people connect and engage.

Vulnerability is a good (and scary) thing.

By daring to share who we really are, what we want to achieve and our inevitable struggles along the way, we can connect more meaningfully and authentically with others.

People want to volunteer but don’t necessarily have a lot of time.

Goal Gathering members are encouraged to help each other by micro-volunteering to support each other’s goals. This simply involves looking for small ways to be of help, whether by offering ideas, free services, introductions—you name it.

Everyone could use a helping hand.

There’s no shortage of amazing charitable causes worthy of volunteer support. But I believe that everyone could benefit from a little help. Even just learning alongside others and sharing a journey can make all the difference.

A problem is a gap between what exists and what you want to exist.

In this way, many goals and problems have something in common. Another way of looking at the Goal Gathering community is as a problem-solving collective. Together we can generate suggestions and potential solutions we’d never dream of alone.

We all have something unique to contribute.

There’s something special and distinct about each of us. We all have talents, skills and knowledge that can greatly benefit our community.

Direction is important.

If you don’t know where you want to go, you’re probably not making the best use of your travel time. Plus, by knowing your destination, others can point you in the right direction.

We aim too low.

There are many reasons why we tend to shortchange ourselves. Why we underestimate our potential, stop dreaming big and settle for just getting by. Goal Gathering is passionate about encouraging people to live their very best lives.

Friends, please let me know if you’d like to join our mailing list or even “pay it forward” by helping me with my business in some small way. I’d love to hear your ideas.

I welcome you to the Goal Gathering community with open arms, an open mind and an open heart. OX Mika

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The Poem’s Intention

Jaxon (Pic by Chris Pouget)

The poem has an intention

Could it be?

Could the words just bleed right through me?

Could a poet be a vehicle for the poem

The way salad is just a vehicle for the dressing?

The way (some might say)

A mother is just a vehicle for the child

But wait, she thinks, I made that person!

I’m at least half responsible

He’s my baby!

Yes, but to what degree did she create him?

There is such magic in life, such miracle in creating man,

Maybe mothers are just a conduit

Maybe poems, like people, have intentions

Though not always clear

Or, if clear, then unspoken

Wonderously waiting for the perfect moment

To come alive

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