10868152_10152880009235409_8667397758527506155_nThere is somebody I was meant to be

Is it me?

Am I somebody enough for me?

At my core I feel not enough

Like someone’s always on the verge of calling my bluff


When will I awaken enough to see

That I’m exactly enough;

Just me.

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In the desert

Hot Air Balloon over Desert by bigforrapThe desert has been dry for many months

Yet with my coming comes the rain

Like a curse?

The wind blows, not whispering but raging,

Demanding the need for change

Though the must and obligations remain.

Sunrise reveals a perfect hot air balloon sailing across the sky

What adventure, what possibility!

But didn’t you hear about that young girl who burned to death because she was too afraid to jump?

Turns out I’m the only one who wanted to fly…

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I’d Imagined

I’d imagined you imagining me

–Imagine how amazing that imagining could be–

But no.

There’s real sadness in realizing that my fantasy

Isn’t your reality


That the twisted forest path I follow in my dreams

Is never–no–not really what it seems.

I wish I could truly lay myself bare

Not give a shit, not give a care

But I do (how predictable that seems)

And I wish I could come up with something clever

Like happiness dispensed via some sort of lever

But no, so…

Here’s hoping you can be for me who I need to be for you

Yet there’s no sort of linguistic trick  that will  do…

So please–

Dare to finish the story for me

Dare brilliantly first before my future self abhors me;

Yes, do it now, do it please

And don’t make me beg for it

I’m already on my knees.

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Life is here NOW!

I sometimes wonder if anyone understands me

Like what I can be

I sometimes wonder if anyone understands you

Like what you can do

I secretly wish you have the power to rescue me

–Ha! See how silly even a modern girl can be?–

And still…

What would it be like if I really understood myself?

What would it be like if you really understood yourself?

Like a rare book read hourly, not shoved upon some shelf

Yes, I still dare to dream that our mysteries can be solved

That our human fears and sins can somehow be absolved

That we’ll seize the power and strength to rescue ourselves

Clearly seeing that life’s not in the bleachers or on these shelves

That it’s right here, right NOW, waiting…IMG_1769

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Is it too late?

In years past I’ve wondered

How to mark a date–

Is it too late?

Am I too far gone, I dare to think,

As I reach happily (?) for another drink,

Wondering now, as I yearn for adventure,

And err sadly on the side of self-censure,

Is it too late?

Come with me now

To spin the wheels of fate

Let’s dare to procreate

And wonder—is it too late?

Still I hunger for something

I fear you cannot provide

And it’s a hunger I cannot/refuse to hide

Something fate can’t override

So is it too late?

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Best of Beauty 2014

If you’re looking for a last-minute gift for a friend, are lucky enough to score a Sephora gift certificate over the holidays, or are wanting to glam it up for NYE, check out the beauty products I’m loving this year.

Hello, gorgeous! 

Best Primer  

Laura Mercier’s Radiance Foundation Primer is a product I use every day. Its slightly opalescent, lit-from-within glow is easily addictive. Although I use it all over the face, I particularly like the sheen it delivers to the cheek bone area.

Tip #1: Sephora sells a smaller 1 oz bottle of this stuff which is great for giving it a first try and even the smaller size lasts forever.

Tip #2: Laura Mercier also does a Radiance Bronze version, which I wanted to love but didn’t. It was far too muddy on me.

Best Eyeshadow Palette

It was my sister who first got me hooked on Urban Decay, and at Christmas time to boot. Their mega-hit Naked2 eyeshadow palette, which contains 12 fairly universally-flattering shades, did me in. Although there are both matte and sparkly options–and I’m not one to shy away from a little glimmer–this palette is slightly too shiny for me. That said, it’s an undeniable go-to when it’s in the house, and Half Baked and Booty Call are AMAZING shades. (Not to mention pretty good names.)

Best Brows

I once asked a professional make-up artist what she considered to be my best feature. Without hesitation she said my brows. It seemed slightly disappointing at the time but now that we’re having a Cara Delevigne moment, I’m pleased. The best shortcut to amazing-looking brows is Urban Decay’s Brow Box. This one tiny box packs a lot of punch: two powders, a setting gel, two tiny brushes, and a mini tweezer. Plus it lasts forever.

Tip: Anastasia Beverly Hills also offers excellent brow products. Though not cheap, the Urban Decay brow box combines so many products that it’s far better value for the money.

Best Cheek Palette

This Urban Decay palette has much of what you need to create a perfect face: a blush, a bronzer and a highlighter. It’s available in four different colour schemes; I’ve tried both the introductory Naked (more pink) and Streak (more peach, which is nice for summer). Although the blush and bronzer are good (and useful for very basic contouring) it’s the highlighter that really takes the cake. This stuff is excellent!

Best Lashes 

Like many of you, I’ve been searching for the perfect mascara for years. While I’m a fan of Lancome’s Definicils, my favourite mascara right now is L’Oreal’s Voluminous Butterfly.

Butterfly Mascar

Something about the brush really does elongate and shape the lashes! This drugstore product is definitely worth giving a try.

Tip #1: Channel your inner Kim Kardashian and apply liberally, especially at the outer tips.

Tip #2: Knowing how much I like the regular Butterfly, I was keen to give the newer Voluminous Butterfly Intenza a try. Disappointing! Unlike its predecessor, that stuff is weak sauce.

Best Red Lip 

Having succumbed to the charms of Taylor Swift, I too have started daring to sport a bright red lip. I’ve even stumbled upon the perfect shade. Lancome’s Rouge In Love in 183N “Be My Date” is a true red–not too orange, not too pink, just perfect.


Unfortunately, it seems like it’s been discontinued. Scour your local stores, ladies, as this a red you don’t want to miss!

Well, that brings this year’s beauty list to a close. Happy holidays, everyone. Here’s wishing you a beautiful 2015!

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Homelessness is the worst kind of wildness

Crow on Lampost by Jan TurnerCoyote, I’m told this used to be a crow sanctuary
Now murders of crows still fly at nightfall
Darkening the city skies like locusts
Nesting on steel buildings, wires and walls
Coyote, do you think they still dream
Of days when their trees stood tall?
Man, we dare to call the birds murderers
When it’s we who are the killers, after all

“You are responsible, forever, for what you have tamed.”
Antoine de Saint-Exupery

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